| This is it guys! |
[Dec. 4th, 2009|12:45 pm] |
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This is it guys.
A day more. Just A day more.
And im all Jittery already.
Dear God,
please let things run as smoothly.
please let it all end well.
and
please let my lil wish come true.
On a note, spa was shiok but 'excruciating' painful later. Putting henna on hand and leg needs a lot of patience. But I like it so very much. :D
Wardah Ahmad
Lets get the ball rolling. (hehe) |
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| Sad |
[Nov. 3rd, 2009|07:42 pm] |
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Im shocked.
The news had yet to sink in.
I cant believed it even happen.
and im sad.
very very sad.
Dear God. Why did it even happen. :(
Im not even surprised if she hates us all now.
Im not surprised if she finds us all bad.
im not.
i really am not.
wardah ahmad |
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| A pity |
[Oct. 12th, 2009|09:20 pm] |
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Its a pity... that all these are happening.
Its a pity.....
Its a pity noone seems to understand or learn the one lesson...
And that is to
..Forgive and Forget..
Because we all might die one day.. Be it today, tomorrow or another day..
A pity. A pity.. A pity.
Just me |
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| Money - the root of all evil? |
[Oct. 10th, 2009|09:19 pm] |
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I learn something very valuable lately.
Something about values. morals, maybe....
Something that may tear relationships apart.
MONEY...
True, we need it to survive.
But sadly, we forgot. It is us who control the way we use it and not the other way round.
Example 1: Husband and Wife keeps fighting about it.
Example 2: ONCE CLOSELY KNITTED FAMILY are asking for money rights.
Example3: When a parent dies, the family turn tables and ask for inheritance.
A pity. A pity. There is no more, that once, a happy family.
And i prayed hard, day and night, that my family: - me, beng, mamat and mum will ever end up like that. EVER. Coz we promised my dad we will look after one another till the very end.
Yours truly
Just Me |
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| Friends. Friends.. FOE.... |
[May. 25th, 2009|08:59 pm] |
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A friend of mine once quote:
Many people may weave burlap of fabric into our life.
But how many of those weave gold thread instead?
Yes.
We may have many friends..
But
How many of those friends are the ones that would cry with us?
I once asked myself this question.. True.. as times go by.. i may have.....
Neglect them .... Yes.. sometimes. (this i admit).
but.
Forgotten... NEVER.
Why does my journal sound depressing.. coz i receive an sms from a friend... she accuse me of things in which i never had any intention of doing. Accuse me of things.. that i feel i wasnt.... saying things that hurt me deeply.....
I treasure all my friends.. Well, at least i think i do.
But it got me thinking... what if i am...a bad fren... just what if its true i have been neglecting them?
What if?
What if?
wardah ahmad
(On a good note, im waiting for mj now to bring good food ovaaa!! chop chai and lemon chicken!!! hehehheheh)
And whoever sms me earlier... its as simple as this... its your loss.. not mine... but thanks anyhow for making my heart pump so fast that it hurts and thank GOD, i told myself to get over it. and also thanks for making a sad wrinkle appear on my face. God bless u and your fulfilling life of making others miserable. If only u knew the real reason why i have avoided u my whole life... only if you knew...... |
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| The nose that refuse to stop running. |
[May. 7th, 2009|02:36 pm] |
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And so today.
i was down with a running nose that refused to stop running.
No.
No fever. (its such a good thing to have a doctor at home coz he forced me to eat medicine)
I nearly lose my voice too but eating robbittusin (honey centre) helps!.
And yes.
I may have spread my lil chill to my love.
Sowwie... vely vely sowwieee....
BUT
Seriusly. i tot it was nothing too serius. I mean my body usually goes hay wire when im having my cramps/menses wat.
And.. i also tot... after all you were my best medicine eva. hehhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
Sigh....
Im off to lala land again now.
too strong the medicine.
double sigh....
wardah ahmad |
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| Random |
[Feb. 27th, 2009|08:39 pm] |
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Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true. Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. The seriousness of your love: You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life. How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous. What are you most afraid of: You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear. Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve. |
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| Friday the 13th.. |
[Feb. 13th, 2009|11:25 pm] |
Emotions got the better of me today.
I was a bit hurt at first. But when i think again.. well.. maybe... i was just being plain sensitive about it. Life is just too short for things like this. If i were to continue to fret abt it.. then.. im just being a mindless childish freak.
Why the emotions uproar.
I just became depressed after seeing this show abt father and daughter relationship...
Coz Bak 'came' into my dream recently. and kissed me on my forehead like every other birthday i had.
He never forgets. Even in death. He just never forgets.
I hate friday the 13... i just hate it.
wardah ahmad |
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| Something |
[Feb. 6th, 2009|11:30 pm] |
Something worries me..
Something...
Just Something.....
Which i myself am not sure of....
Which i myself am not sure of....
wardah ahmad |
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| If not you, Then who? |
[Feb. 5th, 2009|11:03 pm] |
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Its a pity...
when death comes knocking on the door....
we as humans..
we as the ones left on this earth..
how do we just handle it..
Will we suffer? The Pain. The Heartache....
and
if we could survive and overcome God's test bestowed on us.
Its not easy.
And it is neither an easy journey for the one suffering. (close family) and for the one having to give them that emotional support.
For the one suffering,
Let me say it to the face. It IS not easy. And it WILL get tougher as time goes by. BUT as contradicting as this may sounds. Time will also heal all wounds. It took me me a more than a year to get over it. And It took my mum much much longer than that. Even to this day, we do get emotional. Esp when we are forced to remember back the past.. to the icu days. Yes. I very much hate icus now.
You have to be strong.
Tsk.
I for one used to not agree to the term - you have to be strong. Being strong physically. Maybe. But emotionally.. woah.. that's one major tough cookie. But you cant blame the people ard for u for saying tat. They after all, do not know what it felt like. But at the end of the day.... Ask yourself this qn.. If not you. Then who? You have to find that balance back. And you are the only one who can get your own lil feet standing. Its hard. Very... well.. damned.. hard. BUT you have to. If not for yourself. For the remaining love ones. For them who are watching over us now.
Noone can help you if you dont help yourself. Noone. So when that time eventually comes. coz it will come. You will have to find your way out of the tunnel.
But for now, juz take each day at a time. If you need to cry, jus cry. If you need a hug, just ask.
~ Don't worry. You're human.- your memory is no more than a sieve. Time will heal all wounds for your kind.~ extracted from new moon.
Wardah Ahmad
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